Responsibility Is Killing Me

Many People blame "it" on individual tasks, obligations, and problems-paying bills, mowing the lawn, standing in line for hours at the DMV, work deadlines, crashed hard drives, grocery store trips, speeding tickets, etcetera. What People are failing to realize here is an underlying yet overbearing theme: responsibility. Oh, have I mentioned that "it" is your life going to hell in a hand-basket?

No one is completely exempt from this. Anyone who's even remotely capable of getting themselves dressed, making their own meals, holding down a job, and being in a relationship is responsible. It's hard to be completely irresponsible. If we were, nothing would ever get done, civilization and society would grind to an archaic standstill, and as a species of animals, we humans probably wouldn't have even made it this long on the evolutionary timeline. But (and it's a big but) where the problem lies is the murky gray line that separates common-day responsibilities from the life sucking, debilitating ones. I am talking about those responsibilities that at their core are designed to strip you of your very personality. What you also might not know is that you have been the one busy designing your own destruction. I know it's hard to grapple with, but let me explain.

Every new monthly bill you took on, every relationship you held together, every time you got promoted at work, every time you said "yes" or "i've got it," every single moment you spent deciding to do something over nothing (or the wrong thing), you took another step toward a full head of grey hair. You're okay with gray hair? How about loosing your hair? Or maybe you prefer ulcers, backaches, a bad complexion, dark recessed eyes, insomnia, or headaches? I think science has even proven that stress can take years off your life expectancy. Am I freaking you out? Okay. Well, here's the good part.

What are we saving "life" for, anyway? As far as I can tell, we've only got one life to live. If I'm busy NOT checking tasks off lists, NOT bitting off things bigger than i can chew, NOT spending money I don't have, NOT staying up late to do one more thing, then what is it that I AM doing?

What am I saving up for? Why not spend all the personality I can spare? Why not say,"yes" to as many new challenges I can possibly count? I'm not saying I'm going to drink myself into oblivion, rob a store, and drive off a cliff 'cause hey, who the fuck cares? But instead, it's up to each of us to make our lives unique and full of experiences. Responsibility and our ability to choose are the catalysts of a full life. If we are constantly passing on new responsibilities, sure ... we might be able to sleep easier knowing tomorrow is going to be a breeze. But why not sign yourself up for one more thing? It might just be amazing. Hell, it might be your last experience. I'm not sure about you, but I'll sleep when I'm dead.

It's clear that life was in fact designed to destroy itself. You might as well do yourself a favor and make as big a life as you possibly can. It might be your only chance.

Do What You Are.

E.N.T.P.(Extraverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiving)

ENTPs love excitement and challenge. Enthusiastic and ingenious, they are talkative, clever, and good at many things and constantly strive to increase their competence and personal power. ENTPs are born enterprising. They are fascinated with new ideas and are alert to all possibilities. They have strong initiative and operate on creative impulse. 

ENTPs value their inspiration above all else and strive to turn their original ideas into reality. They are inquisitive, versatile, adaptable, and resourceful in solving challenging and theoretical problems.

Alert and outspoken, ETPs can easily see the flaw in any position and often enjoy arguing for fun on either side of an issue. They have excellent analytical abilities and are great strategic thinkers. They can almost always find a logical

reason for the things that they want.

Most ENTPs like to test the limits around them and consider that most rules and regulations are meant to be

bent, if not broken. They are sometimes unconventional in their approach and enjoy helping others to push

past what is accepted and expected. They like to live freely and look for fun and variety in everyday situations. 

ENTPs deal imaginatively with social relationships and often have a great number and variety of friends and acquaintances. They can display great humor and optimism. ENTPs can be charming and stimulating company and often inspire others to become involved in their projects through their infectious enthusiasm. They prefer to understand and respond to people rather than judge them.

Possible Blind Spots

Because ENTPs value creativity and innovation above all else, they sometimes ignore the standard way of doing something simply because it is not original. Their intense dislike for the routine and predictable can make it difficult for them to notice the necessary details. They sometimes neglect the needed preparation when, in their zeal to take on something fresh, they dive in too quickly. And once major problems are solved , they are often off to the next exciting adventure rather than sticking around to see the original project through. They need to work toward making commitments to fewer projects so they will complete more of the ones they start.

Often, ENTPs talk so quickly, and so much, they don’t allow others to contribute. They are honest and fair but can be blunt and tactless in their ready criticism of others. ENTPs need to consider the feelings of others as valid and important, even if they don’t share them. While they can be charming, funny, and entertaining, they can also be insincere. ENTPs need to resist the urge to simply adapt and perform, and instead share their genuine emotions.

...Not only does this strangely exactly relate to me, but the possible blind spots and weakness are what I myself have been thinking about in how I act and in what I say and do. Here is a little piece of advice an amazing teacher once told me, "Life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it" (as in How I react to what happens to me). Good advice, maybe I shoud embrace that rather then sharing and spreading it to everyone, cause sometimes I don't think before I react.

For Cold Months

Man does it seem like forever, since I have posted on here and damn is it still cold out side here in snowy Canada. Since the weather seems to be on and off so is this playlist, and let me present you Almost Crimes first playlist of the month of April "For Cold Months". I'd like to dedicate this to a special someone who I unfortunatly am not with right now, but am by their side forever, I love you.

"For Cold Months" Almost Crimes Playlist Series

Here is the track list and order, I'll be posting same as last time, maybe adding some more videos or two for you all.

1. "Smoke Signals" - The Magnetic Fields 

2. "Nothing In This World Can Stop Me Worrin' Bout That Girl" - The Kinks

3. "Somebody That I Used To Know" - Elliott Smith

4. "Monument" - Mirah

5. "Boy With A Coin" - Iron & Wine

6. "Sparks" - Coldplay

7. "Windy Road" - The Constantines

8. "Edward Appleby (In Memoriam) - Mark Mothersbaugh

9. "Movie Theme" - Beck

10. "Faust Arp" - Radiohead

11. "Hold Your Terror Close" - The Go! Team

12. "Gatekeeper" - Feist

13. "Go To Sleep (Little Man Being Erased)" - Radiohead

14. "Let's Move To The Country" - Smog

15. "Part One" - Band Of Horses

16. "Midnight Swim" - Incubus

17. "Rue St Vincent" - Yves Montand

18. "No Name #2" - Elliott Smith

19. "It Ain't Me, Babe" - Bob Dylan

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I hope you all enjoy and appreciate the songs! more to come.